Hope

I have had a very hard 15 months or so with heart and spiritual hurts (nothing romance related).

Whenever I would attempt to write anything it would always be so depressing and cloudy that I would get tired and weak just looking at the letters and words on the page.

I think I might be coming out of it cause I wrote something more colorful today in my bright book.

I am coming back to me, becoming a good friend to myself once more.

Realising that even though the future is unclear I have paths in front of me .

I no longer see tall thick trees and bushes infront of me. It isn't dark and hallow to look before me anymore.

When I try to sneak a peak in my future, I see paths and choices. Even places where the trees and bushes seem to have stayed rooted, I see them as shade not obstacles.

I am not yet certain where I am going but the road is so much more clearer than it was before.

I am coming back to myself. Becoming a good friend to me once more.

Connecting and mixing all the colours inside me with all the words that fill me.

I feel like I might just be able to love again, I am strong once more. I see vibrant colours in me. I feel them in the words that I speak and the shapes that they form as they come from my lips.

I feel beauty in everything that I am evolving with and in everything that I am evolving into.

The strength that I feel in me is beautiful , I find my own self knowledge to be an attractive part of me.

Coming back to myself being best friends with Unathi these are exciting moments in my life and I know I will fall in love with me again.

Only.

Loneliness always with me. Truth is misery loves company.

Our this compatability, I'd say, is a match that is more than heavenly made. Loneliness, misery and me create our own space of angerdom of suppressed feelings, compact words and bursting at the seams boiling hearts. Full of hurtful words, seeping and oozing at the seams with pain.

With you two, both by my side no one can touch me, no one can hurt me, always protected. We'll take long walks the three of us. With our arms hooked into each other. We'll leave the world of the happy people and their circle of hope and positive words.

We'll pass them by, never to let them in. We'll keep on smiling and laughing together.

Never mind the rest of the world, who needs them anywayz!

With you by my side no one can touch me.

I'll cry to you loneliness when this oozing heart hurts too much. Here in the darkness, you're the only one who ever comforts me.

I'll allow misery always to keep me company.

We both need it so we'll always have eather (each other)

With you, both by my side, no one can touch me.

So let's go for our walk the three of us and remember to smile at the happy people that pass us by.